I Figured Out The Difference!

It hit me at lunch today, what makes it soooo different up here. They treat you as a whole person, not just a doctor addressing his area of expertise or responsibility. When I first arrived and met with the Radiologist for the brain, he went out and rounded up one of his collegues who was a radiologist for breasts and had him come look at me. He in turn had his nurse schedule an appointment with a breast surgeon for the next day. This has been the rule, not the exception. I can't recall being in any type of medical facility where this it functions like this. I'm sure there are places, but vie never been there. I think that's why I feel so comfortable and safe. That's an incredibly important component as far as I'm concerned, because all the energy I would formerly be wasting worrying about what I needed to do, if I needed to see someone else, is this the right thing, all that sort of stuff, can now be used for healing, all I basically have to do is show up for my appointments. That I believe is what's making this incredibly easy, all I have to do is show up, what can be simpler than that?

We found this incredible food co-op today, not far from the hotel, it's amazing, all kinds of stuff and a lot of organic. They even have raw, organic pistachios which Ive never been able tomfind at home, I generally order them off the Internet. It probably sounds ridiculous, but this is really a very enjoyable experience - but I will admit given the choice I would be having it for some other reason :-). Alas, we can't choose the reasons so it is what it is, but I'm going tom enjoy it anyway. Certainly not everyone who finds themselves in my position is lucky enough to be experiencing what I am and for that I am ever so grateful! It's really amazing, because there are so many positive things that are coming from this, that it really is a blessing, I can see so many ways in which I'm growing and basically just approaching life differently that I know I wouldn't have been doing if God hadn't given me this particular growth opportunity. I find that as long as I stay focused on that, (all the positive aspects arising from my experience) it really isn't so bad. That probably sounds a bit strange, but it's true. In fact, my husband asked me today if I was afraid, and I'm someone who would have to say my life would best be described as being fearful for as long as I can remember, each day being a battle to face those fears and try to move through them, but I had to say, no, I'm not afraid! The answer schocked me, but I feel a new kind of peace from fear that I've never experienced before and I think if I'm honest, it makes this well worth it in some kind of strange way. I'm not sure that if it were possible to go back in time and not have any of this happen that I would change it because that feeling of peace from fear which I guess is more of a surrendering to God and accepting of whatever is, well, that is such a powerful, profound experience I don't think I would want to give it up. I believe it's a life changing experience which is carrying me closer to where we all ultimately are headed, to connect to the divine within ourselves. It is such an uplifting, blissful experience - I wish there was a way I could adequately describe it, but it's like if you've never tasted an apple, no matter what I say to describe it, you aren't going to know what it tastes like, just trust me when I say it's bliss.

On that note, I'm going to leave you tonight, but I do have a request - a friend of ours, Bill, from the Yoga Ranch in upstate New York is going to be having open heart surgery on Wednesday, so if you could add him to your prayers, that would be great!