Lazy Day

Somehow this seems like a lazy Sunday, it's raining (wish it would snow, but it's too warm)and I didn't get out of my pajamas until after 1 PM! I'm keeping my schedule empty for today. I'm just going to take it easy and probably do nothing today. It seems like every day I have a million things to do and I'm going all day long, so this is my present to myself chill out day.

I'm rather amazed at how differently things affect me now, or rather don't affect me. When I was wandering all over this campus lost yesterday, in the past I would have been stressed, frightened, just beside myself, the only issue this time was exhaustion! I wasn't frightened or upset, I was just beginning to get very tired and wanted to get back so I could sit down and rest. There has been a complete shift in the way I think, which is pretty amazing. The best part is fear seems to have been removed from my reality. Fear has always been the dominant emotion in my life and now, it is as though it doesn't exist. Having the fear removed is so freeing, it's as if a weight has been lifted. I never realized how much energy it took to maintain the fear in my life, but now that I'm experiencing it from the other side, I see that I expended tremendous amounts of energy to fear. Just think how much more we could accomplish if we didn't waste tremendous amounts energy on negative emotions! The worst part is, most of us don't even realize we're wasting all this energy. Well, I'm going to leave you with that thought. Hope you all have a great day, I certainly intend to!