On to the Next Step

Met with the oncologist this morning, like everyone else, he's extremely nice and comes highly recommended. He's ordering a few more scans and to begin chemotherapy, so I'm waiting for a call with the appointments as I write. We discussed that I could do this at home, but I feel in my heart this is where I need to be so I've opted to have treatments here. He did say they probably won't cure this, but rather it will be ongoing treatment, which is OK. He did however say it was not impossible and there are new drugs coming out and certainly there is hope and not to let go of that, which I'm not. It's kind of funny in a way, but I've been given so many gifts from God, all my life. Whether it was talents, abilities, opportunities, special people... I haven't always put these gifts to their best use, many in fact have been squandered, but I've always felt somewhere deep inside God had a purpose for me, I think this may be part of that purpose. Somehow this takes on a greater purpose if I can embrace the diagnose with all it's ups and downs and hopefully be an inspiration or example to others that this isn't the end of the world. It's merely one more step in my journey, something to be experienced, appreciated for what it's giving and teaching me and as a tool I can use to fully experience life and encourage others to do the same. None of us knows how long we have or in what capacity we will live our lives, all we really have is this very moment to savor and enjoy - whatever God blesses us with beyond right now, remains to be seen, for each of us. Isn't that part of what makes life interesting? Trusting in the greater good, embracing the , and just going with the flow? This whole concept is getting much easier since beginning my Theta Healing sessions - I really believe my work with Dr. Lisa is helping me through this in a very profound way. You can check it out if you're interest in knowing more about it.
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I believe this will play a major part in my being "cured" verses just being treated, the power of the mind is something that shouldn't be dismissed. The mind can tip the scales in either direction, so it only makes sense to tip them in the direction that best suits me. Well, in my opinion, ultimately it's up to God and I'm good with that. Sometimes it feels scary but that's just part of the experience. Well, were off to gather a few more clothing items I need and just wander around Cleveland. The weather is beautiful, my only complaint and it's a minor one, is that I can't find postcards and I always try to send my to CCF foster kids postcards from wherever I go. This time they may just have to get hallmark cards! If that's the worst that happens in their lives, it's OK! Well, I'm gonna run will post again later!
Ciao!