Step 3 Today

Yesterday was a great day! I had planned to update my blog when I got home but I just didn't have the energy. It's funny, it was extremely positive but just the whole gamut of emotions we both went through was rather draining. I can only describe it as being on a roller coaster ri de for the last couple weeks and the constant surge of adrelenine is taxing to the body. Probably the biggest drain is the eating! I eat non-stop because of the steroids, and it's food I'm not accustomed to eating, it's like the way people feel after huge holiday meals, except it goes on all day & night with me! It takes a lot of energy to digest this much food!!! I can tell you one thing, those size 4 jeans don't stand a chance of zipping up anytime soon - thank God for elastic! Well enough about all of this! I'm really feeling pretty excited about getting home because I think one of the major (and there have been many) is that I'm going to get reconnected with my artistic side. That's really who I am and I had allowed myself to lose touch which means I wasn't fully living in myself so this will be great. There's a great video about the gifts of brain cancer by a woman named Stacy Kramer,
http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/eng/stacey_kramer_the_best_gift_i_ever_survived.html
It's strange because so much of what she talks about so parrells my experience, that I have to wonder are she and I just very similar or are the universal gifts that come with brain cancer and some people choose not to see or accept them? That gives me something to contemplate. I know there are gifts, silver linings, whatever you want to call them in everything even though we can't always see them, but it's really rewarding and inspiring when I'm able to get a glimpse and it makes everything so much easier when I'm able to embrace it with gratitude rather than react from a place of fear. Perspective is a funny thing, it totally changes an event's energy simply based on how you look at it - even though nothing else has changed! Wow! Well, on that note I'm going to sign off so I can get to my appointment with the oncologist! I'll post an update this afternoon when I'm through! Remember, always try to stay focused on the gifts!
Love to all and thanks again for all the love and prayers you're sending, they really are helping!